It is Friday morning. I sit here looking at the computer. I am tired. I am fatigued. My back is cramping up. I need to sleep.
But first let me update you on what is going on in my life right now. Well...nothing much. Nothing is really happening in my life. It is at a standstill.
Wow. That was easy.
Next topic: some stuff I have recently read. I tried to read Thomas Paine's "Common Sense," but only got about five minutes into it before I realized that it was not as interesting as fiction.
I saw a random book laying around my room. It had some stories in it. I read "Natasha" by David Bezmozgis. It was about a stoner boy and his cousin Natasha, who was from Russia. They had sex. She was only 14. She knew some pretty crazy sex tricks. It was a great story. Great.
I read "Until Gwen" by Dennis Lehane. It was about a dude who gets picked up from prison by his father, who is like a criminal and scam artist guy. The father had killed the dude's girlfriend, Gwen. The father takes the dude out to the place where the body was buried and tries to kill the dude. The dude had put superglue in his father's gun, though, so it didn't fire. The dude whipped out a knife and made his father dig into the grave, using his hands. The body was there. Then the dude kills his father with a shovel and buries the bodies and goes off. It was crazy. It was crazy good.
Hmm...reading is a great activity...a great past time. When I am old, I am going to sit in a chair and read. I will have a glass of milk and a bowl of grapes. Grapes are good. They contain antioxidants.
I enjoyed reading Raymond Carver. So simple. So moving and touching. So genius. I liked the one about the blind guy who smokes pot for the first time with the narrator.
I enjoyed Josip Novakovich. My favorite story was "Night Guests." I also liked "Spleen" and "The Stamp." Neighbors was good, but it got sort of boring after a while. It's strange that he almost dies in the end.
Well, let me tell you about the story I wrote for class this week. It is called "They All Looked the Same." I didn't know what to call it, so I picked out a line from the last part. It could be philosophical or something. The collective "we" does not include good people like "Juan." The world sucks now. You can't go anywhere. The cops will even beat you down with clubs and sic their dogs upon you. I don't know why I always right from the 1st person. I am not like the narrator. I am not sexually indescriminate. If a building were burning, I'd be the first one in. I got your back.
I only started writing it Monday night, sometime late in the night because one of my friends was visiting from Colorado and my day was spent doing other stuff. Then I completed it little by little on Tuesday and Wednesday night. I think I have insomnia, as you probably have heard many a time. I also think that I have ADD. There is no "H" in the ADD for me because I am not hyperactive. I am just attention deficit.
Just for you, I will report some things here, things that I found I wikipedia.com. Check out the site here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adhd
I exemplify many of the symptoms of ADD. Here they are, with the numberings from the site, and with small explanations:
2. Trouble keeping attention focused during play or tasks (It takes me like four hours to complete a simple assignment because there are so many other things that look fun to do)
4. Failure to follow instructions or finish tasks (It takes me like three months to get something done, like schedule something with someone. It takes me like three weeks to do simple tasks)
6. Frequently losing items required to facilitate tasks or activities, such as school supplies (I always lose my fucking pens. Where the fuck do they go? Also, when I am rushing to go somewhere, I always pick up my keys but then lose them while I look for something else)
7. Excessive distractibility (see number 2)
8. Forgetfulness (see number 6)
9. Procrastination, inability to begin an activity (I only decided to start writing my first story after class last Friday. I only tried starting my rhetoric paper tonight, when it is due tomorrow at noon)
13. Easily frustrated (Rhetoric is not my forte. After many attempts, I decided to scrap the paper. I might withdraw from the course and take linguistics in the fall instead. Rhetoric is bad news, let me tell you!)
14. Easily distracted (see number 2)
Conclusion:
As is evident, I have many of the symptoms of ADD. It sort of sucks. I have insomnia and ADD. Plus, I am allergic to that stuff they use to dilate your pupils. it is called tropticamide or something like that. At the eye doctor, they put that stuff in my eyes and then when I stood up five minutes later, I heard a buzz in my ears that got really, really loud, and then my vision started going. I was sweating muchas, so then I had to sit in a chair and prop my legs up. They gave me a coke. Some little kid came in to get his first pair of glasses and saw me sitting in the chair. He was scared then, and begged his mom to take him home. It was strange. Strange, indeed.
Well, I guess I am going to try to go to bed. I read something about how you need to sleep between the hours of 10 and 2. For some kind of physiological reason. I need to stay strong.
That reminds me, I need to go to the store and get some vitamins tomorrow.
Cereal is quite possible the best food ever. It is great as a breakfast food...great for a snack...and can even be a meal on its own (if you eat a couple three or four bowls). Yes, cereal is certainly the best food ever.
